meet me half way, loves. ( :

i want you to know...

it doesn't matter.

booyah. ( :

back to the blogging world! miss me? ( :

have been going out so often until i can't even remember the date, day and things i did for the past few days. i need to recall slowly seriously. OH YA i went out with kenny and the tweets to KL to have dinner then lecka lecka later on. vodka is love! haha some shits happened on that night and hmm i hope everything is fine and smooth for him now. you know who you are. stay strong, kawan baik saya. ( :

then saturday did nothing much? because i can't remember a single thing i did on that day. haha!

oh sunday! went swimming with the gang then went pyramid for dinner and movie. i think i have used up a lot of money this week. must stop using money from now onwards and must stay home as much as possible. good girllllll is back! :D but wait i hope the friday plan with the pro gang is on though. lets pray. (:

i must pull myself back on track seriously. i'm losing myself already. :( i already forgot my aim and dreams. gahhh. its time to wake myself up and get back on track to know whats going on. i wish what i'm doing now is right. i have so many things to do now. i want to update everything in my life to all my bff. i need them to tell me whats right or wrong because i have lost my mind and i can't determine anymore. :S LOST is the new word in my dictionary.

less words, more pictures are here. :D

<3

when i thought she's the worst fly member in the world

but actually i'm so wrong.

because there's actually another SHE who is the worst fly member in the world.

sigh.

random shits happened everywhere lately.

i can't save all of them.

perhaps i can't even save myself for now.

i guess time heals everything?

i only can be there for all my beloved friends whenever they need me.

i'm really sad for them.

but what else can i do?

besides lending them my shoulder?

besides comforting them?

besides telling them things will be okay soon?

sigh.

take care, my fellow friends.

*you know who you are*

absolute vodka is love. ( :

baby, we are going out of control.

hello world! :D

sorry for MIA these days because i was literally emotional breakdown and also stress about exam. oh yes i just finished three papers in two days and my sleeping cycle is so effin' messed up now. wanna know why? because its 5.08am now and i'm here at suee's house blogging and online.

the three papers which i just took yesterday and the day before yesterday were giving me a hard time. i was so stressed up due to some personal reasons and was fade up of my studies and life. statistics and econs papers were on wed then accounts paper one yesterday. all papers are dumb and random honestly. confusing yet stupid. okay this sounds so not good for describing an exam paper.

oops yes its a really tough time for me seriously. i promised this will be the last time i feel this way. i don't wish to feel this anymore. i don't want to go through this anymore. its so hard to stand up and get myself back. breakdown in front of people you love ain't fun at all honestly. run away from home middle of the night is fun sometimes. run away from reality is good at times. but not too much because you might destroy something that you really want in your life and you intend to forget your dreams or aims in your life. not a great thing to do seriously.

i wish i don't regret for doing all these. i can't tell all because i don't know where to start. i think i'm kinda a good example for emo people out there and i sneaked out of my house middle of the night because i was crying like a fking mad woman on my bed facing the laptop. this was seriously insane. i have never see myself like this before. i have never feel like failure before. you know how much it hurts when all the words come out from a person's mouth. its horrible yet confusing.

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i actually typed this on thursday night i think? too many updates! i'll continue later! :D

Officially failure.

I'm dead and gone now.
How to have myself back?
Who's here to pick me up?
Everything is ruined now.

thinking hard.

hello world.

its thundering outside and i can't really concentrate on econs either. i have been thinking very much lately and also whether to pour out all my thoughts here. simply it's because i can't really put things in words nowadays. i have lost the ability to type everything out here as people might misunderstood and think the other way round which makes things worse sometimes.

i have to admit that love is seriously dumb. at least for our age. does love really exists? or just us who need a partner in our daily life? or just us who love to be loved? there, a someone to talk to, someone to rely on, someone who provides love and care, someone who shares our thoughts, someone who we really can share problems with, someone we need whenever anything happens?

i think i have lost my direction in life. somehow i don't know what to do when comes to decisions. i don't want to regret one more time. i don't want to let history repeats again. as someone just told me, i literally threw this person away. but the fact is that i didn't even throw this person away from my life. he is still here in my life. i can never get enough of him. perhaps he will never leave my life alone no matter how far he goes and how he avoids things between us. it's just not that easy. as i already said love is dumb and humans are even more dumb to fall for it.

the reason is always you. all the ups and downs, the reason or so called excuse is still you. why lah why? i wonder why seriously. i don't care whether you are reading this or what but i just want to release everything out here. sigh.

ahh i have lost my thoughts suddenly. mum just distracted me with starbucks. back to econs perhaps.

bye loves.

maybe we were meant to say goodbye.

boooooo! :)

although there's 45minutes left but still, Happy Halloween day, people!

yesterday morning was not really a good day as i have already mentioned in the previous post but but BUT last night was fulfilling and fun! wanna know why? continue reading then you will know. :)

last night right after dinner, went to pick up donkey then off we went to seremban. okay i know we were quite lifeless and we still are i think? reached seremban after 30minutes plus. wanted to buy siew pao but in the end forgotten, thanks to mr donkey lah. ishhh. yum what cha lah? haha alright was just joking.

then went back to subang and it was raining heavily half way of the journey. it was kinda scary to drive when its raining heavily especially when you can't see the road at all. :( went to fetch mr.edwin in MOS then yumcha @kayu later on. blablabla. i don't feel like writing it into details lah. ishhh around two ish went up to genting FOR FUN again. oh yes for fun. we were THIS lifeless seriously. su ee was in her shorts so she and edwin were suffering in the mist and coldness in genting. haha!

reached su ee's hse at 6 then slept. gahhh. thanks to three of them for making my halloween eve not so dawn. :D

went over to one u to have dinner with the family just now. then bought some winter clothes which cost dad's pocket a BIG hole again. woooot i have a very lovely and good daddy. don't jealous okay? ;P HAHA!

okay i'm seriously out of words already. just now my mind was full of random thoughts which i planned to write down here but i guess it failed me again.

nights love.

xoxo.

someone or anyone please turn on my study mode for me. i feel so hopeless right now. ):

its just me and you forever.

boooo. ):

guess why is there a sad face beside the boo? T__T

because i just screwed my accounts paper today. so much for working hard for it. all the things i was trying hard to memorize didn't came out in the end. so much of my time wasting in the library and i even asked boon to teach me accounts yesterday. thanks boon once again! but but BUTTTT all the things he taught me didn't come out AT ALL. so much for limited companies.

damn you stupid paper. i'm officially hate accounts. still considering whether to drop this stupid subject for the next semester. :S

oh and i slept at 830pm last night then woke up at 6am this morning to study accounts for the last time. everyone must be wondering why i slept so early. thanks to donkey for pulling me out for yumcha session middle of the night. 3 in the morning went murni to yumcha. first time man. sounds damn jakun now but seriously i'm a mama and papa girl okay? goooood girl here! *winkkkk ;p

today is a bad day seriously. after i finished my accounts paper, went over to mcd drive thru since moon and pinky wanted to get mcflurry then to moon's crib to fix my white pants. THEN RIGHT, i came home then i went to the parking lot so as usual my neighbour's car will be beside my car. SO when i turned in that time, at first was quite smooth then when i wanted to park properly, my car scratched my neighbour's car. WTF i was doomed at that time. was quite numb until i can't feel nervous at all. seriously stunned inside the car for more than 2minutes then off the car engine, went down and and looked at my neighbour's car. thank god only some paint came out and i think its from my car not her car. THANKGOD seriously. such an unlucky day. ):

oh did i mention that four people said i'm FAT yesterday? T____T even him noticed that now! shit man i shall go cry later on my bed. T__T okay seriously need to cut down the amount of fast food i always eat and say NO to supper. anyone see me eating mcd middle of the night, please stop me okay? i don't care what ways you use to stop me. YOU and YOU just have to stop me. i don't want to feipoh okay? later no one wants me lah! LOL ya right was just joking. ( :

okay enough of all the grandma stories of mine. let the photos do the talking. finally get to upload some photos because for the past few days, the connection was not that good.

@ curve.

debbie
munhon
lovey dovey couple. :D

adorable much.

@midvalley.

xuannnnn! <3
LOL

FAT FACE. T___T

say hello to manwhore. ( :
he took this when i was eating my panmee. he annoyed me with my phone and i gave him that face. lol.
ernlyn. we were camwhoring in the library ytd. lol!

enough for this post. long enough? :DDD

TATA!

xoxo

tuning into : bad romance - lady gaga. XD

this is the silly me who was doing stupid stuff while desperately waiting for mcd middle of the night.

( :